I kind of feel like that’s how I’ve looked lately. Mostly pissed, totally tired, and very What the Actual Fuck. Work is becoming quite overwhelming and I’m not at all excited about being here. Not. At. All.
I’m trying to take care of myself though, in all honesty, I don’t think I’m doing a good job. And that’s bad. I need to kick myself in the ass, again. I am working on it, but I have let myself get pretty run down and so I’m having to climb out of a deeper hole than is really necessary.
Such is life.
Dr. K and I will start walking again tomorrow, and that will help. I’ve been knitting every lunch while I talk to Lancelot, and that helps. Eric sitting in my lap last night helped. I’m wearing a pretty scarf I brought home from Istanbul today and that helps. And, most importantly, Mom is making me rice pudding today and if that doesn’t help someone will have to check me for a pulse.
The project I’m knitting at lunch is just a super basic shawl, the same “non-pattern” that I used for the World’s Most Boring Shawl last year, only this isn’t boring because the yarn is beautiful. It’s striping in the most interesting way.
I’m still trying to finish a shawl that should have been done ages ago. All of the knitting is done it just needs to be assembled. Perhaps I can get that done tonight.
What do you do when you find yourself in a funk?