spring has sprung and all i can do is sneeze

This isn’t what’s making me sneeze. Those are my African violets and I was showing a friend of mine how the new window shelves turned out. I highly recommend this as a way to increase indoor growing space AND keep things away from cats. It’s a win all the way around.

I have been a bit under the weather lately. I did something to mess with my back, and then the allergies around here are crazy, and my energy level has tanked, plus the spring semester ended and summer started today, so I’ve just been at the end of my rope.

However…

I finished the hat for R (the one that was supposed to be for Christmas) and it finally fit right. Last night I even got back to working on the Ilo shawl. Currently it looks like…

It doesn’t look like much right now but I’m really proud of myself because this is the first all-over lace shawl I’ve done like this. It desperately needs blocking but then it also needs to be finished. The repeat is 24 rows and if memory serves I’m working on #9. Judging by how much yarn is left I’ve got several more left I can do. The colors are beautiful and the yarn is super soft.

Garth went on quite the bender the other day

things that start with “f”

FLOWERS – Lancelot had this delightful little bouquet delivered to the house on Friday as a Mother’s Day gift from the critters. For those of you who may be wondering, that boy has a thing for coming up with truly odd sentiments for cards. It’s a running joke at this point.

FASHION – I have a thing for Hawaiian shirts on guys. L is very much a black t-shirt kind of dude. So recently I managed to find a very authentic feeling retro shirt that’s primarily black. I think he looks wonderful in it. This was taken Saturday evening; we had my folks over for dinner for Mother’s Day. Sunday events don’t work great for us because of L’s schedule, but we’ll party hard on a Saturday night.

FUZZBUTTS – Last night I was sitting on the couch trying to watch TV and knit. These days having my knitting out is an invitation for Eric to get on my lap, and Pippy just figures that any time I’m sitting it’s because I want to pet her. For awhile I ended up with Eric in my lap monopolizing my left hand, to scratch his ears, and Pippy laying her head on my right leg and monopolizing my right hand, to scratch her ears. Needless to say not much knitting got done last night.

After I dropped off our ballots last week, y’all remember I was going to do that? Yeah, totally did. I went and did the blood draw (piece of cake, totally normal numbers), visited the nice doctor (don’t go back for a year, yay!), dropped off the ballots and then decided that I knew there was a yarn shop nearby and by golly I was going to find it. And I did. And it was magical and I got two skeins of yarn that are hand dyed by a local(ish) person and will make an amazing shawl. That “f” word is FABULOUS.

things I do not recommend and a recap of sorts

It’s election season around here, I believe just for city/very local stuff. Lancelot and I vote by absentee/mail in ballot because it’s so much easier with our schedules and it’s one of the few “progressive” things this backward state allows. All of that to say that the election is next Tuesday and I have our ballots sealed up sitting next to me to be dropped at the election commission office this afternoon.

While I was saying goodnight to L our doorbell rang, which is not entirely unusual, but it usually goes along with a delivery truck out front. No truck in sight, and then another ring. Highly unusual. L checked the doorbell camera and saw just two dudes. *grumbles of profanity* It was someone canvasing for one of the candidates. Fine. I had Dog Blossom working like hell to break out so I honestly tell this guy that we’ve already voted. He had the brass cahones to ask me if I had voted for his candidate. I did the only proper thing – I shut him on the other side of the door and locked the deadbolt.

“I said good day, sir!”

The eye doc appointment yesterday was not as amazing as I had hoped it would be. For one thing we waited 90 minutes past my scheduled time to see the doc. Not cool. And for another, I am apparently not a great candidate for the procedure because I’m so young. Why yes, 45 is still considered young in certain circles. I guess your eyes aren’t quite as receptive to this treatment until they have a certain amount of pigment in a particular area. What I do know is that I get to try another kind of drops for 6 weeks to see if that makes any difference. I also know that the anxiety and frustration yesterday resulted in my blood pressure being 172/107. Good times.

Last night’s dinner

I’m still trying out different recipes, many of them from other cultures. L and I both have a fondness for Indian and Thai cuisine in particular. Last night’s dinner came from the “Aarti Paarti” cookbook (Amazon link if you’re interested) and it’s called Kheema. I served it over butternut squash noodles with a piece of chatpat on the side. HOLY HELL. It reminds me a bit of an Italian meat sauce, hence my serving it over the squash noodles. It was amazing, truly.

The ingredients were very “standard” and what I mean by that is I had all but like one thing already on hand, and that one thing was fresh cilantro. It was very straightforward to make and was ready in about half an hour. The chatpat was something L and I picked up at a local Indian market and while not essential, I think it helped to complete the experience. I would definitely recommend this and I will for sure be cooking it again.

distracting myself from that bitch, REALITY

Just me, pretending to be an adult or something

The appointment with the eye doctor is this afternoon. Did I mention that they’re talking about laser surgery now? Maybe? Well, whatever. I’m not responding well to the eye drops for my glaucoma anymore and so now they’re telling me they might be able to permanently fix it with some kind of laser stuff.

On the one hand, this is super cool. Like some sort of sci-fi, maybe I’ll have super powers, kind of cool.

On the other hand, why did you motherfuckers not tell me that this was an option way back when we started treating this bullshit?

At any rate, today is the day I finally get to see if I’m a candidate for this and then what happens next. Since the appointment isn’t until later this afternoon, and Lancelot will be sleeping, my mom has offered to go with me. I find it particularly helpful to have another person with me for appointments like this just because there tends to be so much information and my little brain-sponge will only absorb so much at a time.

Plus, after the appointment we’re going to a local nursery and I’m going to get myself a house plant or twenty.

I was thinking this morning about my goals for the year, particularly the one about finishing my existing knitting projects, and that got me to wondering what all have I managed to finish this year…

  • Mom’s blanket
  • a blue hat for R (that was too big)
  • the cabled scarf for N
  • a green stripey shawl
  • Edgar
  • the beaded shrug

Sadly there aren’t photos of all of these, and the last three are in need of finishing. Niji isn’t on the list because it still needs some construction work. But I think that’s pretty good. As of right now I have on the needles:

  • a replacement blue hat for R
  • fingerless mitts for my friend K
  • the Sunset shawl
  • Ilo (a shawl)

I have yarn and patterns for LOTS more projects but for now that’s all. And I think that’s plenty. I’m very excited that this Friday the local knitting/crocheting group is getting together in one of the parks and I’ll get to join them.

Beautiful Eric the Red and his adorable freckled nose

shit shifting

When I’m not entirely satisfied with my life, or when I get bored (which is kinda the same), I have a tendency to shake the snowglobe that is my universe and shift shit around. Right now I’m in a funky mood, I think mostly it’s a post-Rona kind of thing, and it’s probably due at least in part to finally feeling like life might return to what I’d like to see as The New Normal.

Mostly what this means is do a bit more cleaning out of the house, buying a few new clothes that actually fit and are kind of stylish, redecorating a tiny bit by moving things from one place to another, and trying a ton of new recipes.

Last night’s Meatless Monday entry. Gotta say, not a fav. It was ok it just doesn’t have enough flavor for something that claims to be a curry. It was good enough to continue messing with.

I think part of what I’m itching to do is get outside and try to actually grow some things this year. Last year there was just so much change going on that the outside of the house, meaning the garden areas, got completely neglected. I don’t want that to happen again this year. I’ve purchased some seeds to plant and I’ve been thinking about what goes where and what needs to be in pots on the deck. I have several places I can hang pots, too. I want pretty this year. I need some pretty.

The boys are enjoying the changes. They like to have the top of the desk perch at their disposal. I’m liking that I was able to make room for more books and a mug o’ cuttings that should turn into a full on plant.

This morning I finished the Edgar scarf, and that was exciting. I still need to work on “fixing” my issue with Niji; that might be something for tonight. There’s a workshop thing this afternoon that I have to help with at work so I’ll be wrapping up late. The amazing thing about working from home is the commute.

things and such

Dog Blossom enjoys sunbathing in the back yard

Since last I bothered to write some things have happened. In all fairness my brain is like a sieve that’s lost the strainer part and is now just an open hoop. Nothing sticks or stays around long. I 100% live and die by my routines and the lists I make. I even went so far as to TYPE OUT a schedule for myself last week. Desperate times and all that rot. Of course I have yet to actually stick to it…

For whatever reason it’s gotten incredibly hard to get back to exercising since I was sick and I’m not entirely sure why. I posted something in my group this morning and someone mentioned getting up earlier to get a workout in and I swear y’all, it was all I could do not to respond. Why?

I get up at 4:15 in the fucking morning as it is, and pretty much every minute of my time between then and 6:30 when I leave to get Lancelot is accounted for.

This belly ain’t going to pet itself

Anyway, I’m still trying. I have kind of stalled out at 27.75lbs, but I will freely admit that I’m not trying as hard as I could. I will also tell you that I’m doing some other things that are helping my mental health, and that is equally important. For example, the TV now gets turned off at 7pm and my phone is only used for music/keeping track of my pattern if I happen to be knitting. It’s just as likely that I’m reading a book. This has helped the sleep and stress significantly.

Meet my new friend, Edgar

In one of my moments of yarn buying weakness I purchased a single ball of Lang’s Mille Colori Baby, not realizing that it’s only 190 meters, or not really enough to make much of anything. But it’s lovely and soft and so it’s becoming a very narrow version of Edgar. It’s a delightful little pattern, written for Noro yarn, but it’s doing very well with the color changes in this yarn too. It will end up as an accessory rather than a piece to provide any real warmth, but I foresee loving it.

This last weekend I was also able to get to the glass studio and make a few pieces. I’ll share pics once I get them back. It was really fun to be able to do that again.

Avocado Toast with Eggs

So I decided to try the whole Avocado Toast thing yesterday since everyone has been raving about it. Not gonna lie… I don’t understand this. I used prepared guacamole because that’s what I had, so it had some stuff in it, but even with that I didn’t think it had much flavor. And I love the bread I used, so it wasn’t that. Of course I tried a Golden Milk Latte yesterday and found it gritty as hell, and my forays into the world of Matcha have been spotty at best.

I guess maybe I’m just not destined to love some of the trendier foods. What I do know is that I’ve got curry in the crock pot for tonight, and since today is Meatless Monday I’ve left out the meat and will be subbing in tofu instead. Not sure if that’s trendy, but it will be tasty.

the bandaids are back

“Get back here you little shit, I need to love you!!!”

Today’s title is not meant to alarm anyone, but yes, the band-aids are indeed back. My right thumb and index finger to be precise. It’s not like the weather hasn’t warmed up, I think I’m just still spending a lot of time washing my hands. Oh well.

I’m still having a bit of lingering “something” that is maybe a result of the vaccine, I’m not sure. Morning has always been a better time for me when it comes to concentration, so that’s nothing new if I’m being honest. The unfortunate thing right now is that I’m not feeling at all inclined to exercise and my eating habits are sliding a bit. I’m not gaining weight back but I have certainly stopped losing. And that sucks.

I have still been knitting and I’ve still been doing things in the kitchen, both are good things. Yes, good things indeed.

I’m still trying to do Meatless Monday every week, this was what I made for this week. My protein source was edamame. Very tasty.

The knitting isn’t much to look at just yet, still more of the same really. I am making progress and in order to finish the vest I’m going to need to learn/teach myself a “new” technique. I’m actually really excited, it’s going to result in a beautifully finished edge for the back panel. Plus this is a technique that I can use on other projects.

I’m feeling like today is as good a day as any to revisit my goals for the year.

I will finish all of the fiber projects that are currently in progress – yes, making progress. I finished the cabled scarf for N already.

I will continue to work on my health issues by being more mindful of what I eat and drink – still doing Noom, still doing mostly well with it, down a total of 26lbs so far.

I will work to incorporate more physical activity into my routine by using the treadmill, ultimately getting to 30min/day, 5x/week – this one is a struggle but I am still trying.

I will learn a new creative skill (I have kits here already for quilling and chain maille) – haven’t tackled this one just yet.

Already completed:

I will continue to explore vegetarian dishes and strive to include a meatless dinner at least 1x/week – Meatless Monday is a thing at our house

I will learn at least one new Indian recipe – I now have three in regular rotation

I cannot freakin’ even right now

That is the bracelet I helped to make this weekend

Is that not absolutely stunning? It’s moonstone and sterling silver, and yes, I actually did parts of the construction. It was beyond wonderful to spend time with my friend Saturday morning and see first-hand what goes into making this kind of jewelry. Not only was it informative as hell, but getting to be with another human who I haven’t seen in absolute ages was totally wonderful. So I now know a little bit more about the process of silversmithing, I have an even deeper appreciation for the amount of work that goes into a piece like this, and I have a one of a kind wearable work of art that coordinates with the other beautiful moonstones pieces I have from her.

If you are interested in your own truly beautiful jewelry, and she does custom work too, you should visit her website at https://www.whirlsofpearls.com/.

I also got to see my friend N and deliver his holiday gift, only four months late. He didn’t care. (he got that cabled scarf) We also went for lunch which was a lovely little bonus.

I still don’t feel like I’m totally back on track, but I’m trying. I have my clothes for the week organized, I spent time in the kitchen yesterday doing some food prep, I made cookies (healthy ones), and the laundry is essentially caught up. So yay!

The kids have been a little feisty lately

I do have some fun stuff to look forward to this week. I’m going to do a session at the glass studio and try to make a little something for myself, just as another creative outlet. And on Saturday I’m going with Mom for mani/pedi time. My feet are very excited.

Keep doing what you can to help keep yourselves and your loved ones safe. L gets his second shot at the end of the month and we are excited as hell. WOOT!

awkward and paranoid about it since the mid 1980s

I need to start with a total aside here. Why the fuck is the word “awkward” spelled so damn, well, awkward? I mean honestly, am I the only person who has to completely stop typing and force my fingers to punch those letters in that order by using every iota of force I can muster? No? Ok, moving on.

I’m out of it. Still. And I don’t like this. I feel like nothing has been “right” since last weekend and this morning – JUST THIS DAMN MORNING – was able to put my finger on it.

I didn’t feel good because of the shot so I was off work on Monday. On Tuesday there was a chunk taken out of my day to take Lancelot to get his first shot. On Wednesday I went with him for a doc appointment (nothing serious but the kind of thing that I kinda just needed to be there for). Yesterday we had to see our lawyer again to sign papers (again, nothing serious or bad just one of those “adult human” things). Then this morning I got all three of the kids in my office for awhile so we could have a new ceiling fan installed.

At one point Garth had kicked Dog Blossom so many times that he had a big tuft of her fur stuck in his toes

Needless to say, I need a rest. And a drink. But L works overtime again this weekend. So I’ll have to push through a little more before my life goes back to where it normally is. There’s the rub – nothing about this week, not one fucking thing, has been anywhere near normal and my poor little brain cells cannot cope.

As someone who has been living with a mental illness for a LOOOOOONG time, and been in remission for some time, I’ve figured out how to make life work. But a big ol’ piece of that is having routines and being able to rely on those, particularly when life gets wonky.

No routines right now = brains feel yuck = I am a grump = NO DAMN BUENO

On the plus side, tomorrow morning I’m going to visit a friend who does silversmithing and she’s going to show me/help me make a bracelet. That will be super fun. Also, the vest is still coming along nicely. I had a more experience friend confirm that my plan should work. This pleases me. I was also able to acquire a lovely bit of leather hardware stuff to serve as a closure. More on that when it arrives.

For now, I’m going to relax somewhere. Like maybe under my desk. With a cocktail.

updates and stuff

Birthday dinner!

I ate so much amazing food last week, it’s a legit wonder I only gained 1.75lbs

Sweet babies

3D printed guitar at the museum

Garth is an asshole who happens to like carrot cake

Getting back to “reality” by making salad starter packs yesterday; just add greens, pumpkin seeds, and dressing (and chop the egg)

I finally finished the Seaman’s Knot scarf!!! It turned out amazing

We had a great time last week. There was a ton of good food, two museums, lots of shopping, and a nap every afternoon. What more can you ask for?

This week I’m back to working and my healthy eating habits. I’m having some trouble with my skin right now, likely from eating so much “other” food last week, so I’m not sure if I’ll get on the treadmill today or not. But our “Meatless Monday” dinner is tofu curry and my lunch was a big bowl of salad so I feel like I’m back on track to make progress.

And I do have another knitting project actively in the works. But of course I haven’t taken a picture yet. In my defense, it’s entirely lace so right now it looks like purple spaghetti.